I guess to a large extent, I am very extremely glad that RGS taught me never to depend on the male gender, and hall taught me never to depend on anyone.

I mean, not in like a cynical, never trust anyone to do anything and never ask for help kinda way, but in like a don't expect anyone to do anything for you, but if they do, great, that's a bonus.

To a large extent. Sometimes, it's a bit depressing to be independent, because sometimes you want someone to stick around and be there, you want to have arms that you can run into when you're down and out, a shoulder you can cry on when life cuts a mean bitch. But everyone kinda expects you to deal with it on your own, because that's what they've always seen you do. So when things get so bad that you put aside some of that ego and independent-woman-pride and turn to someone, they're all like whatttt but I can't deal with you being so emotional, I thought you're a calm and independent person, what's going on, how come you're crumbling blahblah. I guess once you're seen as the independent woman, it becomes taboo for you to cry in front of others, it becomes taboo for you to emote stress and negative feelings, and I guess in some senses, society applies the same standard that it applies to men to you.

Not sure I'm entirely ok with that.